I, APOSTATE

by Jeremy MOSS
2018 / 16mm / color-b&w / sound and silent / 1S / 61' 35

A fantasia of post-indoctrination, immigration, and iconography. A pageant of wanderers and searchers: Mormon missionaries, a pioneer, polygamists, scouts, hunters, church-goers, and an aspiring prophet walk and walk and walk. A pilgrimage of memory, history, ancestry, and place.

An experimental documentary that interrogates and explores the seeds of the filmmaker's own religious indoctrination and eventual apostasy. He revisits the European landscapes where his ancestors were converted to Mormonism in the 1800s. He examines the desert places they colonized in the American West. He returns to Brazil and interviews individuals he had converted to the faith twenty years ago.

These Ways I Transgress draws upon the modes of the essay film and surrealist documentary, and captures much of its retrospective and introspective content on hand-processed 16mm film. Directly manipulated and destroyed celluloid can mirror physical and emotional systems of erosion and decay where undetermined textures and artifacts remain after diverse refining processes and distillations. Through a series of formal and gestural transgressions, the film deals with the experience of conversion and indoctrination, the pain of apostasy, and the discomfort and contentment from never fully breaking free.


post production: ATELIER 105

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distribution format Digital file on USB stick (HD)
screen 1,37 - Standard (single screen)
speed 23,976 fps
sound sound
original language English
rental fee 184,00 €

distribution format DCP on USB stick (SMPTE 2K)
screen 16/9 (single screen)
speed 24 fps
sound sound
original language English
translation French (Sous-titrage)
rental fee 184,00 €

distribution format Digital file on USB stick (HD)
screen 1,37 - Standard (single screen)
speed 23,976 fps
sound sound
original language English
translation French (Sous-titrage)
rental fee 184,00 €

distribution format DCP on USB stick (SMPTE 2K)
screen 16/9 (single screen)
speed 24 fps
sound sound
original language English
rental fee 184,00 €